As a mother of several children, I would always remind them over and over again that there was no such thing as monsters - none under the bed, in the closet, or in the hallway. Seven years ago a monster entered my life; and I had never believed. A monster that was lurking in the heart of my youngest child. A monster full of lies, deception and empty promises. A monster that tears everyone apart. It’s a monster that is snatching lives away at an alarming rate. SUICIDE is a MONSTER. Seven years ago I received the bone-chilling call at 1:15 in the morning that a monster had tried to steal one of my children. As I raced down the street I peered through the ambulance window, I could see attendants trying to pump life back into Jon’s lifeless body. I heard myself screaming… a sound I had never heard come from my throat before yelling at the monster, WHY WHY WHY. Less than 13 hours later the monster won as my son’s body was too weak and tired to sustain life. Again I yelled at the monster…. Why did you do this to my son? I need my son. I love my son more than life. Jon was kind, caring, and his smile lit up the room. GIVE. HIM. BACK. The monster sneered and mocked me, teased me as I slipped into my own depression trying to forget the scene I had witnessed. PLEASE COME BACK. The hours slipped into days and into weeks then months. Jon has been gone from me seven years. How can that be? The monster had been swept and hidden under the rug; however over the years I have approached the monster, lifting the rug from on top of it. I have gotten to know the monster, studying it, and the many lies it breathes into the hearts of people, young and old alike; it is no respecter of people. It has been my life’s quest to continue to take the power of the monster away from it and to bring HOPE to the hearts of people who are finding life difficult. Please know that if your life is a MESS today, what you are feeling will NOT be same in a week, month, and certainly a year from now. LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL….. and the world needs you. Remembering Jonathon Mike Gundrum 7.5.89 ~ 12.1.10
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AuthorI am a wife, mother, and grandmother. Late in life I decided to go back to school to become a professional counselor. I have achieved that dream, and am open for business. Archives
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